JZ.

at 5:54 PM

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想拥抱你　拥抱错过的勇气

曾经想征服全世界

到最后回首才发现

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记

那天晚上满天星星

平行时空下的约定

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你

紧紧抱着你

at 4:52 AM

Long it has been since such a feeling has been recalled. The sense of being manipulated by the existence of it. Dejection, dispirit, debilitation, what have you. Its been 6 years since such melancholy. Unguarded, I am appalled by its intense impact. I daren't label it as the another turning point nor a final destination. But this is simply delirious. This is it. At least one thing for sure, I enjoyed my fair share of pride and love. No matter the outcome, Thank You for that. xoxo

at 11:16 PM

At this stage of my life where I am supposed to feel a sense of satisfaction, some opulence from my profile...

Recalling those days where nothing else mattered except simplicity-infused happiness. Nothing too intricate, just plain getting delirious over the immaterial things in life. When joy remains behind those falling tears. Where beatitude sets in naturally without too much sophistication. An innocent child living in nirvana.

Dear blog, I am randomly revisiting you as a nostalgic avenue.

at 1:00 AM

Surprises.

Something to make me (you) feel good.

Ain't what I want.

To put things simply,

For all you care is all I need.

Life is too short. Keep mine simple.

As far as we know, this may not be the last stop.

at 7:28 PM

I am a bimbo.

Just to hear you say that once again. How I miss those times.
Indeed, I am too proud to lose.
As a matter of fact, nothing really matters anymore because this is hurting so badly.
Brother, I am sorry for something I never knew.

at 9:10 PM

The urge to make my life as screwed as possible is simply irresistible. Simply because doing so and looking at you getting frustrated and hurt just heals everything within. At the very least, it substantiates your conception towards me and who I was (not) all the years. Sadly, my precious life is worth so much more than your lousy principles.

Living in this abyss where I am immutably criticized and doubted is not enticing at all. I remember how I am always looking at others in amaze due to the intensive interaction that they actually enjoy with their "friends".

And you did not know how much it sucked when you looked at me, with cynicism. With that face telling me that I am someone that goes around getting shagged. The game of trust ended few years back. I guess it is no longer important to neither me nor you anymore. And if there is a remedy up till this point of time, it is definitely to not immerse into your footsteps.

If I were to give my one cents worth, it is to say that you fucked my life. Thank you for everything, dad and mum.

at 5:15 AM

At least things are worth moving on from now on=)
At the very least, everything that occurred in the past was sincere.
Thanks for that.

at 12:10 AM

Random thoughts and dreams are surfacing recently.
This may remind one that he/she is living in deception.

The concept of inception may be logical thou.
Blame it on time or remembrance,
I am only left with the back.

Things probably lost its way, way back then.
Needs to wants to abrupt disappearance.
Now you tell me.

at 9:29 PM

Sometimes I just wonder when would I garner my family support.
With regards to the major decisions in life,
each side reckons they are right.

But in fact, who are we to decide who is right or wrong?
Based on seniority? Experience? Love and concern(please not this)?

Ok, now for the declaration that I am actually unable to blend into my own family.
If I can't blend into it, can I even call it mine? Yes.

After living wth them for 20 years,
I realised that I was moulded into someone, somewhat, very different from them.
The beliefs, culture, way we live etc.

Maybe its just my problem that I am such and you can just blame it on me.
Friends around me share anything under the sun with their family.
For me, it simply sucks that at times (or maybe most of the time),
when you have some things to share, be it good or bad or even something random.
It feels so damn bloody awkward to even squeak it at home.

I feel like a freak, someone making a three to a four.
I hate this feeling.
Trust me. You would too.

at 1:18 PM

To that pervert yesterday.

Make sure I do not see you in the bus today.
I cannot gurantee that it would be an umbrella talking to your nose again.

To hell with you. nb.

at 4:14 PM

Thank you, my friend.
I really appreciate the effort :)

at 2:43 AM

from the bottom of their heart.
from people who care

all along we never give up on him
we are still awaiting for the day he comes back
the times we spent is irreplaceable
we just don't wanna lose such a nice friend..

if you have regret anything you have done,
be it in the past, future or present.

the only thing worth regretting does not lies in the past.
it exists in the present and may even have serious implications on your future.
any hurdle can be surmounted, including yours.
please. turn around.

at 12:16 PM

If I were to use a picture to describe life